I've always wondered how people knew what they wanted to be when they grow up.
I've guessed things I could do and planned ways to be an artist or a photographer but never gone through with them. We all had career ideas as small children. Some wanted to be a vet or an astronaut or ballerina. I knew from grade school that I was talented at art and writing because my teachers told me I was. They used my work as examples often so I figured this meant I should have a career in that field. Just because you are talented at a certain thing, does that necessarily mean you should do it for the rest of your life?
I ask myself what my passion in life is a lot recently because nearing the end of my college program, I should have a plan for after graduation. I still have no idea. I'm 22 years old, have completed grade school, high school and most of college and I have no clue what I want to do in life. There's things such as health, fitness, photography and caring for others that make me happy but none of those things I can picture myself doing every day for the rest of my life.
A huge fear of mine is that I may never find that thing that I love and fit so well with. I wonder if I'll go from crappy job to crappy job or expensive college course to expensive college course in a never-ending circle.
My dream is to travel and learn about new cultures with enough money to afford my expensive makeup and fashion tastes as well as a nice car. One doesn't simply get handed the finer things in life unless one is royalty or a Kardashian.
All I know is that I want to learn and to have money. People have suggested I become a teacher, just because it'd easy or to become a sports journalist just because I like watching basketball but it takes more than a fondness for a subject to commit your life to it.
I compare it to relationships. Would you marry someone if you only liked a few certain traits they possessed? I know I wouldn't want to spend my life with someone unless everything about them was perfect for me. Maybe finding the perfect career is like finding a soul mate. Maybe I just have to wait and let it find me rather than pull my hair out trying to fit myself into a job description.
Tanya Shukalova is a 22 year old, Professional Writing student at Algonquin College. She aspires to be a sports journalist or to work for the government. She would like to write for a basketball team in the NBA and is also interested in photographing the games.